All this time I was writing to the future

writing to the future

Until yesterday the timezone for this blog was set to New York Eastern Time.

I have lived in Santa Barbara, California since March 2017.

There are multiple facts present in this situation:

  1. My blog maintenance skills leave a considerable amount to be desired,
  2. WordPress does not have an intuitive settings dashboard, and
  3. Past Cassidy was giving future Cassidy a hint that they would eventually both understand. 

No, I do not have plans to move any time soon.

(Though, Santa Barbara was never a ~*plan*~ but a series of thoughts that became possibilities that became choices made.)

However, I am considering my options.

And that is my most favorite fact present — I have options. Some are more practical, or more accessible, or more thoughtful than others. But, I have options to consider in most parts of my life, and there are no external pressures or forces that are requiring me to make any choices right now. It is a privilege to have options, and that is not a fact that I take lightly. I get to practice a sense of intentionality and reflection in what my next steps could be.

There isn’t even a sense that it needs to be the “right’ choice, because if I have learned anything over the last three years it is that most people are just trying to make the best choice that they can make with the knowledge that they have.

(*Most people – because there are also others who do not act with a kind heart or awareness, but that is the subject of a different post.)

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I have made this choice. Onto the next one.

 

“What are you going to do with your life?” In one way or another it seemed that people had been asking her this forever; teachers, her parents, friends at three in the morning, but the question had never seemed this pressing and still she was no nearer an answer… “Live each day as if it’s your last’, that was the conventional advice, but really, who had the energy for that? What if it rained or you felt a bit glandy? It just wasn’t practical. Better by far to be good and courageous and bold and to make difference. Not change the world exactly, but the bit around you. Cherish your friends, stay true to your principles, live passionately and fully and well. Experience new things. Love and be loved, if you ever get the chance.”
David Nicholls, One Day

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